1 Not many of you should become teachers, my fellow believers, because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly. 2 We all stumble in many ways. Anyone who is never at fault in what they say is perfect, able to keep their whole body in check.

3 When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal. 4 Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go. 5 Likewise, the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. 6 The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole body, sets the whole course of one’s life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

7 All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and sea creatures are being tamed and have been tamed by mankind, 8 but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.

9 With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings, who have been made in God’s likeness. 10 Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be. 11 Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? 12 My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.

yeup, i don't know what i'm doing. 0h lyf3! y u so h4rd. just taking a lot of time for self-reflection. my two methods for catharsis are shot - tumblr sucks and the pool is still closed. and then i remembered my handy dandy lj buddy here. always there for me during my melodramatic high school heartbreaks. yes.

i don't know if any of this is my fault, but i can't see any possible reasons aside from my bloodline. maybe my temper. yeah. can't contaminate those pure waters though~

i really don't know how to feel right now. i don't feel happy/sad/satisfied that this is maybe probably likely possibly over. i'm just feeling very detached. note to self. distance sucks, and different friend groups suck. and so do prejudiced korean parents.

i'm stuck on a little island and i can't go anywhere. i don't even need to be kept an eye on because what will i do? meanwhile, you can go to clubs and weekend long parties and fuck those girls who haven't been getting off your nuts. it must be convenient for me to be thousands of miles away.

things kinda suck when i can't talk to people the same way i used to anymore because now all they do is judge me

can't you let me be fucking happy for once

no one reads this anymore so no one cares

dum de dum

I'm having one of those things where I want to replay a certain moment over and over again.

But oh well.

what are you doing back here

Note: I WILL keep this up until January 1st, 2010 (danggg) 12:00 PM.

x GOD. How could I have pushed Him away? I need Him with me, always. I’m going to make a Prayer Board, too. I think I'm going to write Him letters, as often as I can. Not in a notebook, cuz that's boring. Like legit letters. I guess it'll help me keep track of how I'm growing/changing.

/ GRADES. They need to be better. And they will be. 3.5+ unweighted or else, Jen. Or else.

/ SPORTS. I’m NOT pushing myself. I’m not giving 110%. In fact, I’m giving 70%.

/ FOOD. I’ve been eating really unhealthy. That’s going to change.

/ FRIENDSHIPS. Some I have to let go. Some I have to build. Some I have to fix. Some I have to hold onto and never push aside.

x SWEARING. I do it. Too much.

x COLLEGE TOURING. I will do it. Somehow.

/ A BETTER DAUGHTER. I'm so ungrateful to my parents.

x TAKE PICTURES/DRAW/WRITE MORE. I'm considering being an art major. Meep.

x GET A JOB. Ugh. Money.

/ SATs. Take 'em. And rape 'em.


I can't believe I kept it up. And followed it. BITCHES WHAT.

I never post on LJ anymore. The only other person who updates daily is Annie hehe.

Anyway, I've been reevaluating my relationship with God. I've wanted proper guidance for a long time, but now I think He wants me to be a light, because I am, in a sense, ready to share. So from now on I'll try my best to let my light shine. Which is hard because there's so many bitchy things I want to say and do.

I'm aiming for Thailand next year, somehow. Whether it's via the Rock or my church or some other organization, I will be there in 2010. Somehow.

I'm working on it.

Haven't posted in about a month.

Hi.

Uhhhhh I'm just here to post a list of things I want. Hah.

Camera. A good one. Maybe Canon Rebel XTI, cuz Dorothy's is so fun. Or maybe a Nikon D70. I dunno.
Tripod.
Used car. Hehe.

need to stop making dumb assumptions.